Saturday, July 31, 2004
:: what the hell m i..... ::
i felt a knife stab in the heart..
so deeply that no one can take the knife out..
what m i to u anyway..
a friend?
more than a friend, less than a lover?
or just someone u sympathise with..
i really do not know the answer..
what you intend to do or what you want me to do..
you never let known to me..
i only can stay on my grounds and wait for your command..
i feel so much like a toy..
so much like a nutcracker..
only when you wind i move..
when u don't bother..
i just stay in that corner where no one will notice..
it hurts me when i see you so excited over someone esle..
when your heart beats faster for someone else..
when you blush for someone else..
i felt like i don't even exist..
i felt like a nothing..
i hate that feeling..
i had done all i could..
i give in everything i had..
i put in all my efforts..
so what else shall i do now..
u made me feel that you are taking me for granted..
u made me feel that what im doing is unappreciated..
u made me feel that nothing i do will help..
u made me feel that im the only trying so hard to make things work..
it takes two to clap..
when one is the only one trying so hard..
sooner or later..that one will die of tiredness..
die of heartbrokeness..
die of hopeless..
die of eternal pain..
i'm drowning in the sea of sorrow..
struggling to keep afloat..
but i can feel myself sanking..
tiredness and hopeless make me unable to reach the shore..
drowning..dying in the sea of sorrow and pain..
-crying in pain..is all i can do now...-
:: it's just me.. :: 7/31/2004 12:36:00 AM
