Sunday, August 01, 2004
:: living in pain... ::
what's the worst pain of all..
not my stomach pain..
nor my rib pain..
is the terrible pain that kept lingering in my heart..
the mark you left on it will never leave..
the pain is still hurting..
why did it felt like a fresh wound..
still so hurting..
they always say time heals..
time can cure the pain..
but no..
time didn't heal at all..
so are you really the one?
the right one for me?
am i the one for you?
life is just full of question marks..
it's up to each and everyone to get an answer..
face it or run away from it..
i hate to run away..
so face it and feel the pain..
from now onwards how should my life be?
what should i do?
what must i do?
what can i do?
haiz..
im lost..
i do not know the way home..
i thought you are my way home..
but now..
i really don't know..
you seems so near yet so far..
i really want you back..
so badly..
i don't even understand why..
you stolen my heart..
broken it..
now you took back yours..
and im living without any..
you don't seems to want me back as badly as i am..
that really set me down..
it seems like i'm the only one struggling to keep your feelings alive..
i'm drained..
totally let out..
i need a rest..
do you know your care and concern gave me strength to move on..
your love will keep me going no matter how tough it is..
but now..
i only have myself..
an empty shell without any heartbeats..
only a body full of pains..
mentally..physically..
even internally..
-i wish for the day when my heart will beat again..will that day ever come.....-
:: it's just me.. :: 8/01/2004 01:01:00 AM
