Thursday, August 05, 2004
my heart is totally broken..
i had tried so hard,
done so much..
putting in all my effort, my love, my care and concern..
all for her..
now everything is just gone overnight..
why are feelings so weak..
how can anyone's feelings be gone just overnight..
i cried myself to sleep..
i drugged myself to sleep..
i feel the pain in my heart every minute every second..
i just want to stop the pain..
u said u wanted time..
u said we should stay away..
u want to stay alone to think over things..
but do u know im so scared that u will come back and just say..
"im sorry but we can never be together anymore.."
im so afraid that time would take u away from me..
i really would not be able to take that blow..
if that really happens..
my life will come to a full stop..
i really don't know what im fighting for now..
im so tired..
one day..just one day..
i might just go without even saying bye..
if that really happens..
i just want to say i really cherish all the friends i had..
esp. those that stood by me when i was so down..
when that really happens..
i might not have anymore chance to say "i love u" to her..
life gets harder when u feel that you are alone fighting..
keeping the love u and her had alive..
life gets weaker when you have tried very very hard..
but what you got is just her cold shoulder..
life will end when one day she has decided to leave u forever..
all your hopes will dashed like that..
and no one will ever care..
when one is living without hopes..
one shouldn't even live at all..
-tears kept blurring my vision..i tried holding them back..but the pain just took over me..soon it will just take away my life too.....-
:: it's just me.. :: 8/05/2004 09:35:00 PM
