Tuesday, March 07, 2006
:: interviews... ::
so many phone calls..
all from the agencies..
saying the same old thing..
"i will forward your resume to our client and if they shortlist you for interview we will inform you.."
and that's always the last i heard from them!!!
after so many many resumes sent out..
i ony been to one interview..
and today is only my 2nd interview..
haiz..
but this is rather far and got to wake up so damn early..
really wonder if i can make it or not..
just go for it and see how..
so much things to wonder about nowadays..
people tell me don't let relationships and love bother me..
i also know that..
and i know that long ago..
but do they know that sometimes things cant be help???
some people are born more heartless than others and some aint..
and i belong to the latter..
so what can i do about it..
they cant expect everyone to be like them right?
always think i don't want to listen..
but do they understand first?
im born emotional..
rich in feelings..
my love will always be my top priority..
i live and fight for love..
im not a emotionless asshole..
im just over sentimental..
regardless of lover, friends or whatever..
im just like that..
if you don't like it..
buzz off..
get out of my sight..
you just don't understand me..
they say a musician is always tempermental, emotional and weird..
i guess that does fits me somehow..
so if you know me..
don't try to act as if you understand me when you don't..
i don't "shoot" you back all because you are older and there was someone else..
and i see no point in wasting my breath on someone who don't understand me..
but there aint much people around me that does understand me too..
i guess im unpredictable to understand..
or just that i like to do weird things..
i always want to be able to sleep without waking...
for months, years even decades..
yes i want to be a true blue vampire..
but i don't the idea of blood drinking..
and the fact that memories stay so clearly..
what the heck..
i just don't want to think about things..
:: it's just me.. :: 3/07/2006 01:31:00 PM
