Sunday, May 07, 2006
been thinking..
wouldnt it be nice to have sumone with you..
to love and care for..
and in turn be loved and cared for too..
yes i know..
i sound like i wanna fall in love.. (fa hua chi)
well..im just thinking out loud..
lol!
everyone will tell me the same old thing..
there's much more in life than love..
so much things u can do..
i also know that!
i have already plan my stuffs..
just waiting for the right time for some..
and of course in the meantime working some out..
so cant i just have some space to think about love for awhile..
-_-'''
im already 23.. (ok fine! 24 this year..)
yet i cant seem to have a serious relationship..
is it me? or what?
maybe im always falling for the wrong person..
or my timing always bad..
or im so afraid to get hurt..
i sound so impatient now..
kinda sick of hearing..
"your right one is not here yet.."
"you are still young.."
"the next one will be better.."
spare me please..
lol..
i seem to always fall so hard for the ones who be sure to make me cry..
who will just break my heart..
and make me so afraid to love after that..
then sumone who's so nice..so right..
that is sure not hurt me will come along..
but that moment i will have a phobia..
so afraid to try..
and end up i cant seem to feel anything..
hello "upstairs"!!
are you having so much fun making my life in such a routine..
to see me falling in love..
give my whole heart..
break it SO damn hard..
then end up back to square one again!
how many times already!!!
so sick and tired..
damn! i really got to VENT this out..
think that's partly why im been so "fan" lately..
unleased of ALL emotions in all aspects..
family, life, work, love..
really is UNLEASED.. (i sound like some wild animal.. -_-'")
maybe im just unwanted..
so sad to think like that..
what i can do is..
WAIT!!!
yes..only wait..
be patient..
let nature take it course..
hmm..if like that..
should i also fight for what i want?
delimma now..
how?!!
someone please tell me.....
:: it's just me.. :: 5/07/2006 07:13:00 AM
