Monday, October 04, 2010
u don't know how i feel..
i just want to be the only one..
i know i can't..
but i just want..
why was i so bothered that u didnt call me..
coz when u need help..
i am not the 1st person you came to..
i am not the 1st one u went to..
i am not good enough to make u feel that way..
yes you are right..
u cant bring me in front of your mum..
but he can..
naturally as a rational u..u call him to send u..
maybe if i did have a job..
i have income..have money..
then all these do not need to wait till now..
wait till u need to ask him to do..
root cause..all my fault..
useless..
i thought i was good enough for you..
all these years..
i only keep the thought of loving you and missing you in my heart..
i never show and never do anything..
bcoz i always feel that i am not good enough..
i am not doing enough to make myself better..
to make myself richer..
to make myself more comfortable..
how can i take care of u..
i thought by now i can do it..
but the fact is im still not..
i am not doing enough to pick myself up..
i am not doing enough to make myself better..
i am throwing myself in state of emotions i cant control..
i cant control..coz i love u too much..
maybe i am just selfish..
i want you all to myself..
i dun wan to share..
i dont know how i can make that happen..
all u tell me is that it's not possible..
and it hit me to blackout..
:: it's just me.. :: 10/04/2010 12:18:00 AM
