Tuesday, November 02, 2010
u said it was happier with him..
my heart broke..
I'm still living in my world where I tot u love me..
that we stil can make things work..
even if u don't believe me..
but u r still the one..
i just want make things work..
I do all I can in this..
u said I do so in every r/s..
but never with the absolute trust to break my heart so badly..
esp with the trust of such a long friendship..
I'm not sure what was it for u..
but it had always been love for me..
I always thought that killing ownself had been a cowardly act and I will never do that to hurt myself..
but now I'm actually trying to kill myself slowly..
I know I should live for myself..
but now I don't see any meaning..
I don't see any light at all..
I don't even have hope..
I don't want to just live in my own world where I still hope bcoz today u told me it can never be..
u said time will tell..
when I tell u that u always b the one I love coz no one knows the future..
and by the time..Time tells..
it all change..
things r diff..
u might have left me..
but if u r the last one of my journey this will tell u that u r the one I love..
till the end of my time..
if there are any more posts after today..
it means I have failed in the slow killing..
if not.......
:: it's just me.. :: 11/02/2010 05:45:00 AM
