Wednesday, January 12, 2011
i just want to end it all..
you have said it out..
it's no and dun wan..
all along i tried so hard..
i wanted to make things work..
i really do not mind..
but the least i should get is at least have an assurance..
to know that even though i am the 3rd party..
even though im hidden..
i got you..
all i need was that to just get things going..
to get everything to fall in place..
but why..
why did things just keep repeating..
becoz i just cant get that acknowledgement and assurance
this is the main reason why for the past year..
we been arguing non stop
actually we really can be happy together..
without all these issues..
since i have to be the hidden one..
why cant i just get that little assurance from you..
now i know why..
coz you have finally answered me..
u know when i said i want to end my life..
i meant it..
and i meant it that you will not know..
20 down and more to go..
do you know i am in depression..
that everything seems so negative..
all i wanted was to get something positive from you..
to pick myself up and get out of the mess..
to know that after all i am loved..
i am still wanted..
not hanging in the midair..
alot of things happened..
alot of things changed..
afterall this is how i have to end..
becoz i aint strong enough to get myself out of this state..
bcoz i rely too much on love..
maybe that's my weakness..
something i can never overcome..
:: it's just me.. :: 1/12/2011 08:32:00 PM
