Monday, January 03, 2011
It's a new year..year 2011
It's supposed to be full of Hope
Yet I feel hopeless.
I know for the past year I been very emotionally unstable
Bcoz I'm on to something that is nothing
I can't hold on to it Bcoz it doesn't have any status
It made me very insecure and disoriented..
I know things will be very different if she is my gf..
But she just doesn't see that point..
No she doesn't..
I made a proposal To her
But seems like she kinda rejected it
Coz to her it doesn't mk a diff
But it will mk a big diff to us
Coz all the insecurity will slowly
Disappear and things will get better..
Coz that's how things will be like..
But it seems like this will never be revealed..
I just hope things will not get worse..
I have abt 3 hours left to slp n go wk..
But my head is spinning and my heart is in such pain lk Nv b4..
Everything seems gone n wash down the drain..
Everything I work hard for the past year..
The love n efforts I made to prove to her I want her..
It just doesn't seem to touch her heart..
She just don't want me anymore..
I feel like an abandoned child..
Seeking for refugee..
All I wanted was her love her heart and for her to acknowledge Me..
I failed..and she is just walking further n further away from me..
Closer and closer to him..
I have lost everything..
What use am I now..
I wonder..
:: it's just me.. :: 1/03/2011 04:42:00 AM
