.:. ..the great pretender.. .:.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

im just being silly..
im just being an idert..
i know that myself..
but i can't help feeling this way..

i can't help feeling so dejected..
can't help feeling so rejected..
can't help myself for feeling so down..
i don't understand what is more important to you..
the feelings or the mood?

i don't understand why am i such a failure..
maybe i want you too badly to think properly now..
im just a human..
i too have faults and emotions..
i just need to let this feeling of dejection out..
i know this is just a passing feeling..

i need to think clearly now..
sorry if i upset you..
i just need to feel how i feel..

and i don't know when will i ever have this courage again..
not for a long time..?
i really don't know.....

:: it's just me.. :: 6/14/2005 12:44:00 AM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

:: Ups and Downs... ::

down is how i feel..
as her past still huant her..
confusion raid her..
sadness came to me..
hate to see her caught in between..

pain overpower me..
i cant breathe..
felt like im dying any moment..
my heart is bleeding and crying..
it hurts as im losing her..
it pains 'coz she aint happy..

i lost myself for the moment..
as i was caught up in terrible pain..
but i realised all i want is for her to be happy..
if she's happy..
i'll be happy for her too..
if she's sad..
i'll feel double her pain..

so i decided to leave..
hoping to give her space and time..
even though it hurts..
and it aint easy..
i'll still let go..

but im glad now we sort it out..
thanks for giving me such sweet moments to keep for life..
time is what we need..
so just take things slow..
time will tell..

:: it's just me.. :: 6/11/2005 01:45:00 AM

Monday, June 06, 2005

:: Busy busy busy..... ::

ahh~ weekend pass so fast!!!
had been sleeping the whole day today..
guess i need to make up for the sleep i lack last week..
well..next week onwards..
i know im going to be very busy..
my shift work is starting..
my cases has been assigned to me..
must really work hard now! =)

went ktv yesterday..
but got there rather late..
coz got ambience stuffs to do..
hehehe..
realised that my singing dropped alot..
can't project as well as before..
haiz..sian diaoz..
i need more practises~
but not now..
coz i think my sore thoart is coming back again~!!!
had curry today sumore..
must take care of my thoart..
i need it for a living~
lol...

well..thing been alright..
im had been blessed recently..
with love..
=)
even though our feelings grow so strong..
im taking things slowly..
and so is she..
i just cant help smiling to myself..

to be blessed with such fortune..
is what anyone always dream of..
to be able to have this dream always..
im going to make it into a reality..

love is in the air..
can't u feel it too?

:: it's just me.. :: 6/06/2005 12:32:00 AM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

:: First Day of June ::

today is like meetings day..
had 2 meetings in a row..
oh man..
this job has to be very serious man..
i really feel like im working now..
as in professionally..
my own computer will be coming in tomorrow!!!
yes~ finally can have my own space with my own computer!
and then i can full blast in my work! yes yes yes~

hmm..since today is 1st of June..
i guess that marks 14 days more..
to determine and be more sure if this will be long term or short term..
after that..i guess it will take 1 more month to have a more confirmation answer..
but it's ok..
as time is what i have..
and patience is what i gain..

Go forward with no fear..
Love with all ur heart..
Everything just seems so right..
Chance is what i need..
You are what i want..
To protect and take care of..
A priceless treasure once in a lifetime..
Never ever will i let go..

:: it's just me.. :: 6/01/2005 11:48:00 PM