.:. ..the great pretender.. .:.

Friday, July 15, 2011

电影好感人。。
因为很真实吗。。
因为反映了我内心的感受吗。。

真实的电影。。
有伤心的时候。。
结局是美好。勇敢的。。

那我人生的这场。。
在落幕之前。。
有可能也有这样的结局吗。。
会有这么勇敢的爱吗。。

:: it's just me.. :: 7/15/2011 08:10:00 AM

Friday, July 08, 2011

I can't help feeling the hatred inside me growing..
it's just eating into me..
eating whatever that's good in me if there is any..
I have fury and anger building up and there's no way to let out..
I feel frustrated within..
I don't know why I'm feeling this way..
why is everyone happier than me..
why are all these taking away my happiness?
or is there too much problems on me that it cover anything that is happy..
on the surface there is nothing wrong with me..
I laugh and smile like a happy person..
such a postive outlook..
but I'm struggling deep down..
this is tearing me apart..
why..why do I feel this way..
why do I hate everything..
I need to find the reason or to find a way to let this out..
but I can't find the reason nor a way to let out..
I do not have a solution..
will I go crazy..
what will I do..
what will happen to me..
will I die..
if so..will I get an answer........

:: it's just me.. :: 7/08/2011 11:00:00 AM

I can't help feeling the hatred inside me growing..
it's just eating into me..
eating whatever that's good in me if there is any..
I have fury and anger building up and there's no way to let out..
I feel frustrated within..
I don't know why I'm feeling this way..
why is everyone happier than me..
why is all these taking away my happiness?
or is there too much problems on me that it cover anything that is happy..
on the surface there is nothing wrong with me..
I laugh and smile like a happy person..
such a postive outlook..
but I'm struggling deep down..
this is tearing me apart..
why..why do I feel this way..
why do I hate everything..
I need to find the reason or to find a way to let this out..
but I can't find the reason nor a way to let out..
I do not have a solution..
will I go crazy..
what will I do..
what will happen to me..
will I die..
if so..will I get an answer........

:: it's just me.. :: 7/08/2011 10:49:00 AM

Thursday, July 07, 2011

im really lost..
not knowing what to do..
no matter what i do things just don't seems to be going right
i pray for a better time
but it doesn't last
i don't know how long can i hang on
im feeling hatred within growing

im hating everything
i hate my life
i hate myself
i hate everything around me
i hate the pain
i hate the misery

:: it's just me.. :: 7/07/2011 11:10:00 AM