.:. ..the great pretender.. .:.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

im falling..
sumhow i can feel myself falling..
even my friends say so..
but is it real? or is it just a show?
i myself aint sure..

but what i know is..
moments with her are so real..
i just want time to stop..
just want to see her smile..
just want her to be happy..
if i can i will want to do much more things for her..
protect and take care of her..

well it's still early to say..
just see where time will take us to..

will this love blossom?

:: it's just me.. :: 8/30/2006 03:45:00 PM

my stomach is turning upside down..
been having the runs since monday..
really cannot take it today..
must go see a doctor and get mc..
rather worried this mc might affect my confirmation..
praying very hard now..
let's hope for the best..

:: it's just me.. :: 8/30/2006 03:41:00 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

such a feeling i had..
turning my emotions upside down..
stirring my determination..
what had happen..
maybe it's just a depression passing pharse..
i got to keep my faith strong..
believe in myself..
stop my determination being shaken..

life's never fair..
i got to continue to fight for my fairness..
guess im just tired of fighting..
resting for awhile but not forever..
time to continue my battle after today..
exercise self control..

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everyone look at me as a player..
but how many really know me deep inside..
yes i love to have fun..
but i do can be serious too..
since now there's no one and nothing for me to be serious about..
why should i put on a serious front..
i dont care about what everyone thinks..
as long as the one understands..
but when will the one appear..
waiting still..

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love might be sweet..
and it will affect your everything..
but the best love never come easily..
are you ready to suffer before the sweetness come..
trust and believe..
keep the faith strong..
i believe in you..
so please believe in me..
i trust one day my love will come..

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if i said i love you..
will you love me too..

:: it's just me.. :: 8/20/2006 08:41:00 PM

another week had passed..
same old routines..
nothing much happened..
expect..my health?
LOL!!!
shall not reveal..

well well..
im on a challenge by a friend, Miss Yan!
who dare me not to drink for 7 days..
till next Saturaday 23.59.59!!!
so..im trying very hard to control!!!
fighting the cravings!!!!

:: it's just me.. :: 8/20/2006 06:35:00 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

it's been another week..
health seems to be wreaking up..
my life just a mess..
and it's all because i caused it to be in a mess..
everything was working out fine and alright..
why did i get myself involved in emotions and feelings again..
it was after so much trouble i got myself out of it..
made myself cold and hardhearted..
maybe i was just lonely..
or i just need more sparks in my life..
what should i do..
how should i think..
i need to work a formula..
to cure my disruption in life..

i need time to settle down my emotions..
need to calm my feelings down..
need to get away from everything..
im just drinking my life away..
thinking things will be better after that..
it's all wrong..
i need to have a focus goal..
a right direction..

:: it's just me.. :: 8/13/2006 03:52:00 PM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

wah! so long never blog le..
well..been drinking alot nowadays..
trying to cut down..
alot had happened..
too much and too confused..
well if it's meant to be it will..
i shall just concentrate on what i should do..

:: it's just me.. :: 8/09/2006 05:17:00 PM