.:. ..the great pretender.. .:.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

finally im down due to over exhaustion..
on MC today..
already tried pushing myself not to take MC..
but this is unpreventable..
whole of last week @ my grandma's funeral..
didnt get to rest well 'coz we need to do things and stay thru out the night..
and i had shifted back to yishun..
so many things to unpack..
still need to buy things for my room..
have to think of how to do up my room..
and after my grandma's tou qi...
the next day i went back to work..
and now im just knocked out with a MAJOR headache and slight fever!!!
really got to use today and rest well..
i really need TONS of energy booasters!!!
guess what..
im so sick and tired..
my eyes cant even open today..
total jay's eyes now..lol

today is thursday..
still have my CCTS to finish up..
guess tomorrow i will have to OT like mad..
well well..
what to do..
thank god..sat im not working..
can go home and rest after work tml..
if not my exhaustion will never recover..
oHh!!! i must say thank you to RIKO and JOVIAN!!!
my dearest colleagues~!!! helped me with the CCTS!!!
XIE XIE NI MEN!!!

hmmm..well 3&1/2 days before she's coming back from japan..
kinda miss her now..
lol..
*hehehehe*
ok i know i sound cheeky..
but well..
going to rest now..
zZZZZzzZzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

:: it's just me.. :: 9/28/2006 01:10:00 PM

Monday, September 25, 2006

the truth is i do not know what im thinking of..

my grandma just pass away..
the family is slowly falling apart..
well..it's always the case..

suddenly i feel my mood going low..
not because she's leaving for a week..
but because of..................................
maybe my life is just like that..
maybe im just not meant to be appreciated..
maybe i should just keep myself away from everything..

will i ever hear you calling me "my dear"...

:: it's just me.. :: 9/25/2006 07:19:00 PM

Friday, September 15, 2006

Dumbest Things I Did In My 24 Years of Life!!!

And it all happened this year! year 2006! ever since 7th August 2006.....that fateful day.....

No. 1 :
overshot my mrt stop because i was too engrossed in msging!!!
how could that happen when u are so wide awake!!! -_-!!! DUMB!!!

No. 2 :
fell asleep while talking on the phone!!!
oh god!!! i never allow that to happen but it did..woke up with the phone beside my face sumore..dumber!

No. 3 :
book tickets for a movie that i really want to watch but forgot all about it!!!
i never forget about watching a show i booked, but was so engrossed in dinner and looking @ photos that it just slipped off!!! DUMBEST!!!!

I predict to have more upcomings..to be continued! STAY TUNED! LOL!!!

:: it's just me.. :: 9/15/2006 03:30:00 PM

Monday, September 11, 2006

for a moment i felt you were mine..
but actually you weren't..
at that moment i just wish time could stop..
just let that moment last abit longer..
i just want to know how you really feel..
what's inside of you..
what are you thinking of..

i know im falling so hard..
but yet im trying to hide that..
it's really hard to do that..
coz everyone could see whenever i mention your name..
im just full of smiles..

im learning to control my emotions..
to let you go..
hoping you will come back..
everytime i feel like im dying of heart pain..
i will just try to brush it past with a smile..
joking around as if it doesnt bother me..
but deep down inside..
who will really understand how i feel..
who will ever bother.....

:: it's just me.. :: 9/11/2006 10:00:00 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

havent felt so depressed for a long time..
havent felt the stabbing pain in my heart for so long..
i just want to numb myself..
stop this pain that im facing inside me..

if you feel the same way as me..
then things could be work out..
whether if there's a happy ending or not..
it's up to two of us to make it work..
fate lies in our own hands..
it's never easy to have find a person that feel the same way..
why cant all this feelings and fate be cherished..
instead of just letting everything go without even believeing in yourself and me..

i just dare not think anymore..
dont want to know what im thinking inside..

just let me drown myself in alcohol..
at least it will numb me for awhile..
being sober might not be a good thing..

:: it's just me.. :: 9/03/2006 03:14:00 PM