.:. ..the great pretender.. .:.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

im NOT feeling GOOD at all!!!
i just hate it that i bothered so much when it doesnt even seem to be a great deal to you..

it just hurts inside..
i can just feel the pain..
it feels so real and alive..

is it just me..

:: it's just me.. :: 6/24/2007 06:18:00 AM

Friday, June 22, 2007

i know i have not been blogging down much..
maybe coz my mind is blank..
guess i am a emo person..
and at times i get spurs of negative emotions..

i never like that..
but cant help it..
guess i am one who will think of the worst so i will be prepared..

so what i am..
i will still be caught by it..

i must start to learn to control..
control my emo..
and ease them..

the best man is one who can control..

:: it's just me.. :: 6/22/2007 02:45:00 AM

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

finally i got my renewal..after sOoo long!!!
one thing settled..
more to come..

still waiting for the wisdom tooth hole heal..
seems like it's really taking its own sweet time..
causing my margine to get worse and worse each day..
im praying that the margine would just go away..
it's really terrible to have that pain on your head everyday..
and it's affecting my ear too..
now my ears seem to get sharp pain now and then..
damn..

let's pray my tooth heal by July..and margine heal NOW..
i want to go for my buffet~!
hahaha!

maybe it's time to start my driving lessons too..
been really lazy these few years..
planning planning..

to be continued.....

:: it's just me.. :: 6/19/2007 01:13:00 PM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

i just need to be a whinner today..
well my darling had heard me whinning for a few days already..
and she really had been such a dear to bear with my stupid toothaches..
love you so much..

plucking out my wisdom tooth was the bravest thing i did this year..
but the pain that came afterwards wasnt something i expected that much..
today is the 5th day already..
and im still having a toothache..
what the ****!

even before i went to the dentist..
my parents had to scare me saying..
"oh..tt dentist is not good..someone had to pluck his teeth for 4hours and need get help!"
tell me why parents are never helpful..
and i pluck mine 2 wisdom teeth in about 1hour 15mins?!

rumours are really pretty scary..
but there might a tingle of truth in it..

now it's affecting me so much im having headaches..
painkiller aint working that well anymore..
im having stitches but stupid me went to eat prawns..
it's my fault actually..
think now it's having some internal "conflicts"..
so i got to suffer for my gluttoness..

my contract is like ending in 1 day time?!
and no news from my workplace..
the best part is my schedule is already out..
and no one inform me of my contract renewal..
so does it means i can stop going to work and slack at home..
well since there's no offical notice i can just not do anything too..
it's always like that..
im always not informed of my start shifts..my midnights and now my contract..
really like taking me for granted..
expecting me to know everything?!?!?
why always me!!!
damn it..

i know i sound very grumpy today..
it's my blog..
so if you dont like it..
just click away!
lol..

thank god i still have nice and wonderful colleauges to balance the unbalanced..
and of course my darling to get me thru all my sufferings..

:: it's just me.. :: 6/05/2007 01:26:00 PM

Sunday, June 03, 2007

just took out 2 wisdom tooths..
ARGHH!!!
that's the worst thing that can ever happen..
pain and more pain..
and you cant eat too much solid food too..

thank god i have a darling that came over this weekend to accompany me and my swollen lower jaws..
thanks baby..
without you i think i will just die in pain..
love..

p/s: you do look very pretty doing your work.. =p

:: it's just me.. :: 6/03/2007 09:23:00 PM