.:. ..the great pretender.. .:.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

i just want to make things right..
make things better..
but whenever i want to do that..
things just get worse,..
maybe im just trying too hard..
i guess i should just stop trying..

:: it's just me.. :: 2/10/2011 01:13:00 PM

Tuesday, February 08, 2011

it's chinese new year..
really do feel good about new year..
hope that everyone will do well in this new year!! =)

just watch some videos..
and once i stop..
it's empty again..
don't what to do..
scare to have the room so slient..
want to play some games to pass time..
but don't know what to play..
no interest as well..
do not feel like sleeping too..
started playing my mp3..
and blogging..

suddenly so scare to have nothing to do..
just want to make myself so busy to pass time..
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i just stare into blanks moment ago..
dun even know what to type anymore.........
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:: it's just me.. :: 2/08/2011 10:35:00 PM

Saturday, February 05, 2011

once again..it's the chinese new year..
time passes fast..
so much have changed..
there had been alot of ups and downs..
i am learning to cherish what i have now..
but it seems that i have lost it all already..
maybe i was too late..
it's just myself left here picking up the pieces..

listening to a song..
made my eyes blur again..
cant help feeling the loneliness..
feeling the emptiness..
i remember this saying..
"it's never too late to look back.."
but at this moment..
everything seems too late..
maybe in the future..
the right chance will come again..
i always hope and look towards the hope..
but it's also becoz of the hope that i always fall so hard..
and i cant pick myself up..
life is just so contradicting..

i just need to get used to being alone..
no one to grumble to..
no one to complain to..
no one to be here to take care of me when im sick..
no one to be called mine..
no one to share my problems with..
no one to spend happy times together..
it will just be me..and me..

no matter what..friends can only be around for that little time..
it's still totally different from someone who is willing to stay through out..
who is willing to be committed into a relationship to make things work..
to walk down the road with you..

overall..i still believe in love..
but i miss my chances..
so i don't think i will get it again..
if heaven pity me..
please give me back what i want..
i will promise to cherish and not give up..

:: it's just me.. :: 2/05/2011 12:12:00 AM